Here is a little free verse to express my true feelings for the one who complicates everything in my life. He is the very one who knows all the solutions to his issues but is too feeble-minded to take action. He too often puts others feelings ahead of his own. He lies to himself saying others’ happiness matters more than his mental health. He only lives to please others while simultaneously gathering shards that resulted from his brokenness.
Instead of being myself, I continue to construct characters out of the very shards that I am retrieving. Ultimately, if this persists, All that will be left are these personas erected solely from broken pieces of me. These broken pieces… held together only by fake love, and people’s lies. So I just write poems. As a way to speak to the man I once was, the man i want to be. The man who has so little pieces left of him, he has almost lost his identity. But God still loves him. It is amazing how God can take something so damaged and still manage to make a masterpiece.
He can take me and my manufactured characters that have been cracked and worn, and effortlessly mold them back to who I was before.
Don’t make the same mistakes as I did. Be true to yourself because you are also one of God’s creations.
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